Hello Everyone,

It has been so great to hear from all of you. I am so greatful to have friends, family and people who I don't even know reach out and feel what they think I must be going thourgh. You can't even imagine. Life exists in different relams all at the same time. The realm that feels the loss of a tremendous love, the realm that says you must keep moving forward, the realm where everyone else's love is a band-aid that you are glad is there even though it does not stop the bleeding.

You contacting me gives me faith in humanity so I do appreciate the notes, cards and letters. I feel a little overwhelmed with returning all of them so please know that I receive your blessings in the highest. You have taken time to reach out and speak to me personally at a time when I have lost the world's most precious comodity, love.

There is so much happening in the world. So much that we see on the news, and are bombarded with in our daily lives. It seems incredible to me that anyone would have enough time out to pay attention or even think about my journey for more than 5 seconds.

I truely appreciate you reaching out. I have wonderful friends and family who check in on me but, after the phone call is over, I am left with my thoughts and memories. I have my moments every day. Right now the moments are sad even though the memories are beautiful. Eventually the sadness will turn in to smiles but, who knows when that will happen. One million people can't do anything to make the pain in your heart go away.

I am only one person. So many others have lost friends and love ones in the war, in accidents and all kinds of other scenarios. I am just one man who's heart aches and I thank you for caring. When you have someone in your life that is such a beautiful soul, you can never forget how her inspiration, love and overall positiveness helped get you through you days. I miss her so much and I have to keep going forward. We had so many beautiful moments. I will cherish those forever.

Even though I have many people to talk to and who are stepping up to be in my corner, it is nice to write to you here. The you who know me and the you who don't. This expression feels like a cognitive communication that reaches everyone with no strings. As long as love is felt and the message is heard I know things will be alright. I hope everyone who takes the time to read about and experience Hydeus via this blog will go home and spread love to those around them. That was Hydeus' gift; the gift of her ever abundant unconditional love. She lived her life here and everafter though her music and peaceful natural way of wanting to make a difference. Don't let her down. Spread your love and her love will continue!

Thank you so very much

LeRoy